the compound

i am wishing i didn't have to live on the compound. It wouls be so easy. I have to deal with my own depression issues but i have to also be there for my family. Right now Keith and Tonya are going thought a nasty divorce. The kids are stuck in the middle. Mom and dad are talking about going for guardianship[ of the kids.
I am not sleeping well without Jesse beside me or in the same place ie the apartment or trailer. One day last week i was tired i laid in bed and i could not fall asleep. Well at midnight i went to the bedroom and laid down and as soon as Jesse turned on the kitchen lights i was out. I guess it was just waiting for him to come home that eased my mind enough i could finally fall asleep. Then the other night we had horrible thunder storms and i was tired but i could not fall asleep till Jesse got home and he was over an hour late. I had finally called the store and found out the other guy was late that is why Jesse was late.
There is more to write but i am to hot to think.