here i sit in my living room in the trailer. I am a little cold as i don't have the heat on. I am not sure if i am going to stay here or go to Jesse's tonight as i really don't want to be alone here in the trailer. It is to hard knowing that all Jackson's stuff is just down the hallway. This was to be our home. His room and all his things. It will never be. He is not here in person but in spirit he is and i think that is also making it harder on me. I think i am going to go and see Jesse and get the house key and go wait for him and then i can get up in the morning and come back up. I did get alot done over here today. I cleaned off the couters, stove and i took the washer and dryer out and remove a wire shelf and a set of cupboards above where they were. Tomorrow i need to work on my halloween costume as i need it for next weekend. YIKKKEEEEEEEESSSSSSS Halloween is almost here. I think the first night i stay here i want Jesse with me. That way it will make it more special. He picked out the countertop color. I have not ordered it yet but i think that is the one i am going with. Well i need to pack up my laptop and get my stuff and head out it is after 10 now and i have to let my parents know that i am not stay here so they don't freak out.