so i can't sleep. I have this one thought running wild though my mind. I need to clean up clutter in my life. One thing that has been there and i am not doing anything about is the Fire Dept. Well i have made a decision. I am leaving the dept. It is all volunteer so it is not like i get paid. I have made history with the dept. It has been in my blood since i was a little girl. My dad has been on the dept since i can remember. I was one of the first (2) females on the dept. But with my depression and all the other stuff in my life it is not fair to me or the dept. I am not capable of doing the job that i need to do. I am not in town enough anymore. I will support the dept by going to fundraisiers and helping out when i can. I just feel the dept would be better off without me. I have only told 1 person this and yes that is Jesse. He is no help. I have emailed another person and she will get the info in the morning and i bet i will have an email tomorrow night when i get home. ALong with a phone call.well off to bed now that i have this thought under control with writing it down on something. normally it would be paper but i think the keyboard works better for me. Yes it is easier for me to type it out then write. Plus neater. And it is easier to erase here then on paper. so maybe i can sleep now.