I have to say goodbye to a family pet. I don't want to have to do it. But i had to call the vet i made the appointment to have it done. I have to take her to the vet. I guess because i am " the strong one" i get to do it. It doesn't matter that i am dying inside all over again. It just like when i lost Jackson. I think that is part of the reason it is so hard on me to do this, I think of Jackson and how i lost him and how he will never be here for me to hold.
i need to go i can't breath or see though my tears, I will be fine i have my therapy tomorrow.