i am so depressed all i think about how much happy i was just 2 years ago. I was happy, and healthy. I just want to be healthy and happy in all aspects of my life. I am tired of fighting what is that is making me unhealthy. It is not something i want. I actually hate being sick. I want to be able to enjoy life. I am happy in one aspect that is my love life. I am so happy with Jesse. I don't want it to end. But i am afraid that if i don't stop being sick all the time that he will leave me. He has not said anything but that is what i am thinking. I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY AND HEALTHY AGAIN. Is that to much to ask. well it is 3 am and i have to work in the morning so night