I am fickled

So here i am sitting wrapped up in the electric blanket in the living room. COughing my fool head off. I can't move my right shoulder without being in pain. I think i am going to sleep on the couch tonight since Jesse is not comeing up. I am fickled right now. I am not sure if i want to go to White River jct or stay here. I am not planning on doing anything tomorrow. I am not sleeping well so i am not planning anything that takes to much engery. It is to be bad weather so i am going ot head to town early. I Can't afford to get caught up here at the trailer. I have to be at work on Monday. I will walk if i have to. I know i am not making any sense. But to me it does. I went and wrapped christmas presents up tonight. THere was not many since i don't have much money. I know something i won't be getting this christmas but i am okay with it since I know Jesse don't want it. I Have not talked to Jesse about things that i need to talk to him about. I just don't know how to bring it up to him. It is not that important anyways. well I am going to watch tv i guess. I am not tired but i am.